Mom guilt. It’s real.
We are 4 days into our new schedule. Life is so different and so wonderful. Dan is home more. We’ve had more family time this week than ever since Olivia was born…AND we’ve both been working. It still feels like a dream.
I’ve been working for anywhere from 2-4 hours a day. I haven’t worked this much in 3 years. And honestly, before the 30 day push, I’ve NEVER worked this focused. The hours I’m working, I’m really working. I have to do a 30 day recap because it’s been so, so instrumental for me into focusing back on my businesses.
I’m working on diversifying my streams of income and in order to be doing that I have to be focused on my goals every single day. (Hello to do list.)
Since I am so focused, I’m also trying to be more present with my girls. I’m able to do this more than ever because I don’t have to be multi tasking because I have more hours to work.
But with all of this, comes the mom guilt. For the past 4 days, I have felt so guilty that I’m losing those hours with my girls. Mila sleeps so much, so it’s more Olivia. For the past 3 years we’ve been together from 6 am to 5pm and now things are changing. Yes, I’m SO happy, pumped, motivated and excited to be working more…but I have such a strong feeling of guilt that I have less time with Olivia. YES, she’s with Danny and she’s BESIDE herself with excitement, but I MISS her. I know this is totally normal, but that doesn’t mean it hurts any less.
I do actually feel silly for feeling this way because I know working more is good for me and good for my family. I want to be able to REALLY support them. Danny has been supporting us for years, and he’s happy to do it…but I want to be able to do my part. And the more I can do focused work, the more I can be present with my girls.
It’s also so good for Olivia to see both Dan and I each working. She also hears us talking about our goals every day and our to do list. She even told me this morning, “my goal is tone”, which means she working on speaking with a nicer tone of voice. (LOL, can you tell we say this 24 times a day…?) I KNOW this is right for us and our family, I just have to get used to it. It’s a weird thing to feel so happy and then have the mom guilt too.
Mom guilt is a widespread feeling. If you have kids, I’m sure you have felt this way also…A LOT. I know I’m not alone. I KNOW I’m lucky to be a stay at home working mom, I don’t take that for granted for one second. This is just new for us and I have to adjust.
Soon I’ll share with you what I’m working on. I’m also going to be working with Amanda in her business accelerator/mentorship program. I’m so excited to work on myself and my business and see where they can go. This is going to be a great year.
I think the biggest help to my mom guilt has been to talk to Danny about it. He is so supportive all of the time. Talking about it to him and other mom friends has made me already feel so much better about it. If you need support, talk to other friends, or feel free to email/tweet/instagram me. I LOVE my family and I love my girls so much. They are my number one priority and I know working a few (very focused) hours a day will only add to the richness in our life.
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