I quit. I did it. I’m no longer an elementary school teacher.
How and Why I quit Teaching
Yesterday was one of the the hardest days of my life (not counting days of true tragedy and sadness). I’ve never quit anything that meant something so big to me. In my 26.5 years of life, I’ve either stuck with things, or grown out of them naturally, like working at a day care center in high school, I left when I went to college. If I quit something, like soccer in the 5th grade, I didn’t really care for it or put much effort into it, so quitting wasn’t such a big deal. This was a big, huge, enormous deal to me.
I was destined to be a teacher since elementary school when I played with my friends. I was one of the only people I knew who ALWAYS wanted to be a teacher. Enter college, what’s my major, teaching, obviously. There was never ever a wavering thought or moment because teaching was ALWAYS for me.
I graduated college when I was 21 years old. Fast forward 3 months I was a 100% full time Special Education teacher for the 4th grade. I honestly thought I’d stay there for a long time, much longer than 5 years. I thought I had it all figured out. I had a great boyfriend I’d been with for a long time, I knew engagement, marriage, and a mortgage was coming…and it did, happily. Oh 21 year old self, how you so didn’t know what was ahead.
That first year of teaching was by far the hardest, I was constantly challenged with learning curriculum, adapting it, meeting the needs of all 12 children with special needs, plus the emotional needs of 12 other general education children, plus fitting in at a new school. None of that changed in the other 4 years, I just knew the curriculum and my collegues, which made things easier.
I drove to school with a giant smile on my face everyday ready to teach. I lived for the kids and our time in morning meeting where I developed a great connection with all of my students, each year. But somewhere along the way, things changed. My smile went away and they became tears many nights of the week. Where did that happy person go, because I REALLY missed her? I remember hearing and comforting my friend, Lauren, when she went through this and I didn’t think it would ever… be… me. Hate teaching, no way, couldn’t be me, but it was.
The thing is, I don’t know if it’s because of my blog or because of the blogging community that things fell into place for me. I just know that this is the way it’s meant to be. Because of my sister I started this blog to write down my recipes and healthy living tips for her, but along the way it changed into SO MUCH MORE. Because of the healthy living blog community I found Integrative Nutrition and my destiny changed. Maybe it was always supposed to be this way, and I didn’t know, but, I know now it’s right.
I know that I am and always will be a teacher in my heart. I’m just teaching something different now. The teacher in me will always have patience and understanding; be organized and prepared and for this I’m grateful. I’m so grateful for the time I spent teaching and learning and that’s never over. I’m grateful for the kids I taught and hopefully touched. I’m grateful that I had the opportunity to meet and develop relationships with amazing friends that got me through everyday. I’m grateful that I now have the chance to be happy and make a difference in the lives of others, in a different way. Those Sunday tears are going to be no more.
I have so much more to say about this, but it will have to be a different post on a different day.
For now, it’s onward and upward for me. My future hopes and dreams are here now.
*Edited to add: THANK YOU to all of you who stood by me through this time in my life with words of wisdom, guidance and support. You all mean so much to me whether you are real life or a virtual friend. Whether it was a phone call, text, email or emoji filled conversation it meant the world to me! THANK YOU!I quit teaching to start my own business! Click To Tweet
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